Post by Deleted on May 24, 2020 3:40:01 GMT -8
We open back up on Melissa Aki’s couch. Her eyes are red and we can tell she has been upset by what she mentioned in the previous part. Hannah Aki is next to her now. Melissa sips more of her coffee]
Maki: Han, you should have been here for the last part I recorded. I want you to know.
Hannah: Do you think I could listen to the story of your rape?
Maki: I guess not. Well you will be coming into this one now so it is important to hear your views.
Hannah nods as Melissa puffs away on her vape, thinking about how stupid she had been.
Maki: So that last part was extremely emotional to say and for you dear watchers it was probably even harder to hear and see my reaction to it. There is one more intense part to get through and then you will see my rebirth. So please do not feel bad or pity for me. Sometimes you need to go through extraordinary hardships to become who you are today. Think of the seven year old child who has been hit by a bus or a new-born with leukemia fighting for life. They deserve your concern. Not me. I am simply telling you my story.
Hannah: Well you have depressed the fuck out of everyone now.
Maki: I am a phoenix rising from the ashes. Anyway, so the rapes went on and on, along with the beatings. Feeling dehumanized was now a way of life for me but I still had to keep up appearances. I was wrestling but within myself, you know? I lost matches I shouldn’t and The Makihouse Kick wasn’t as sharp as it used to be. I still won more than I lost. Brett knew something was up but didn’t pry. So we kept rolling on, living hand to mouth but the more punishment I took the less merchandise I sold so we were dirt poor. I emailed my parents and Han from time to time.
Hannah: You hardly said anything and when I wrote back to ask to hang out I wouldn’t get a reply for weeks and then it would be, “I can’t sorry love. Wrestling and travelling. Next time, eh?” I am a freakin’ model I can fly to wherever you are.
Maki: I was not me. I keep telling you that. So we will get to the fallout of what happened to end this ridiculous relationship. I am not making light of it. Hell, I went through it. I just want to erase that whole time from my life and part of it is talking about it like this. My therapist said it will be cathartic.
So we went to a restaurant because he wanted to, while I was running into debt keeping us afloat. We had our food, I remember this clearly, I just had a tofu salad and he had ribs or something. All night this waiter was flirting with me. Tommy was furious and was blaming me. So I figured he would wait til we get home and the same cycle would repeat.
Hannah rolls her eyes and then becomes impassive again
Maki: So he told me harshly to wait where I am, he would get the car. So I am all dolled up in my little black dress. A beautiful Latino woman was waiting for a cab. She started to talk to me. It was nice to talk to a girl you know? I am faithful when I am in a relationship so I would never have gone with the waiter or this woman but we were just shooting the breeze. Her cab came, she grabbed my hand, kissed me on the cheek and whispered, “I saw you with that guy. You can do so much better. You’re stunning! If that thing hurts you again, and we both know he hits you, this is my brother’s card” Then she was off.
Hannah: Should have taken her advice.
Maki: Probs. I quickly looked at the card and threw it away. I was scared that he may find it if I kept it. I was waiting for a few minutes but it seemed like ages. The squealing tyres told the story that he was going to attack me tonight but I was safe as he never wanted it to be publicly known as around Boston at least, I was known.
Hannah: Still are. They even call me Melissa’s sister when I am there, asking for your autograph.
Maki: Happened when I was there with Quinn too but think she got more requests!
Hannah: I am not going to talk about that one again.
Maki: Anyway, So he jumped out of the car, punched me so hard in the face with such sudden ferocity I was shocked. He slammed me over the hood of my car and tried to rape me again. This time in public. He lifted my dress up but I started to fight back, witnesses said I had eyes as black as the night. We fought and somehow he had a knife at my throat, and started to rape me again but apparently he looked shocked. Something in my demeanor had changed. It didn’t stop him but he held the knife closer, I heard footsteps and shouts from nearby but it was like I was drowning under water and you can hear just snippets but what I could hear was…
“Drop the knife on the ground and back away from the lady. We will shoot if you do not comply by the count of three”
COPS! I was elated but something happened within me, I heard myself say, “I am free” but it wasn’t my voice. and didn't come from me. So now, Han, doesn’t believe this part but I swear I got it from witnesses and the police corroborated it.
Hannah: Yeah Yeah The Demoness saved you. Blah blah blah. You’re nuts just admit it. Anyone went through that would be.
This time it was Melissa who rolled her eyes.
Maki: So this is how I was told it went down and as per the police report. He wouldn’t drop the knife and was still technically raping me. They had got to a count of two. There was a wail like a banshee scream coming from me. I grabbed the knife from his hands and stabbed it through his right eye. As he fell to the ground clutching at the blood coming from his eye, I was clawing him all over and slamming fist after fist into him. The police raced over and pulled me off. Officer Christensen said my eyes were black, my skin was pale and I looked like a ghost. The scumbag was taken to hospital. He lived and I testified in court against him. He is in prison now. I wasn’t charged as it was classed as self- defence which was backed by my two heroes. Daniela went back into the abyss just as quickly as she had freed herself.
Hannah: This was when you reached out to us and told us the story. Which, as you know I am still furious with you for blocking us out but its what comes next that hurts me more than anything else you did.
Maki: Hmmm yeah. I felt free. Of course I was emotionally scarred and haven’t dated or had sex with a man since. I may do again in the future. You cannot predict what will happen.
Hannah: Let’s fast forward this okay?
Maki: Fine. So things improved, my career was also improving steadily. I had decided my best course of action was to be with friends and family. Yes, I had had a couple of one night stands with women but it felt good to be wanted again without the emotional baggage I was carrying. Things went downhill fast one night. I was in a bar with Hannah. We were drinking and a couple of blokes were chatting us up, feeding us drinks, giving us their lines. I was apprehensive as I could feel Daniela stirring and since that night she only stirs when she senses issues about to arise.
Hannah: I am used to guys hitting on me and usually Mel would be too. This time something felt off but I was getting drunk and he was a handsome fella so I was getting swept away.
Maki: He touched my hand. I freaked out. I slapped him hard in the face and ran out of the bar. I kept on running and running. Somehow I made it home. I just sat there thinking if this was my life moving forward. Do I want to carry on? That bastard had ruined me. I was in floods of tears. Was it worth it? I was dying slowly inside and there was no escape from it. The only escape was…death!
Hannah: Fuck you. I cannot sit here and lis…
Hannah burst into tears and ran off camera
Maki: it is a horrible thing for her and I do hope she comes back as we have not broached this and her feelings on it. So I wanted to end the internal suffering I felt. Even with Han I was different. My life had spiralled out of control and the only way to control it was to end it. Daniela came up and I felt my thighs tingle, and in my own blood on my thighs were the words, “Please Don’t Die”
I did not adhere to her wishes. I ran a bath. I presumed Hannah thought it was me being weird again and was dancing with that bloke and the last thing she would remember was being happy that night. I texted Brett. Spoke to my mum and dad and they didn’t know anything was wrong. I couldn’t hurt them and tell them what I was about to do. I emailed off to my federation bosses that I would not be going back.
We can hear whimpers from afar. Hannah crying in the background but Maki is stoic girl.
Maki: I lay in the bath and held a knife in my hand. I was not going to do it with a razor. I am a unique and bat shit crazy lady and I am going to go out as one. Finally I would find peace. I cut my left wrist and then somehow managed to cut my right one. The pain was intolerable but I sunk into the water, and let the pain wash over me, I found myself in a meditative state. I wondered if I would meet Buddha or would I have vanished from the earth almost as quickly as I had entered it into earth and mud or would they burn my short existence away from the earth like a true Viking.
At the time those thoughts kept me happy as I drifted into unconsciousness. In the far reaches of the world I was leaving behind I heard a noise. I started to slump into the water and was wondering if that slight noise preceded the white glow that everyone says they felt.
Hannah walked back in and shut the camera off. We slowly come to life again, Melissa with her head in her hands and Hannah looking pissed off.
Hannah: Enough talking now. My damn turn. So that noise you heard Mel, as you well know now, was me smashing your door in. What you failed to mention was that Mum and Dad KNEW there was something wrong. You believed they didn’t but they did. Do you believe for one second I would just let you run out on your own? I am your fucking sister! I got there and as I raced from room to room I couldn’t find you. All the lights were off so it was a task. I found you in the bath, pulled you out and wrapped towels over your wrists. It was ME who called the paramedics, It was me you would have left behind. This is why I am a bitch to you. Never once did you want to confide in me, never did you tell me you wanted to kill yourself. Everyone forgave you for it but I can’t. Imagine finding me in a bath full of bloody water, slipping away from this world, on my own and you came and found me. How would you feel?
Maki: I’m sorry, Han.
Hannah: Doesn’t make it right. I cannot forgive you for it but I have been given more time now with you for which I am eternally thankful. I am so happy you are back doing what you love, being happy, the old Melissa is here now and we all love it and you so much but you tried to leave me and I had to save you and see you like that so I am sorry but the apology will not work on me. I have said my piece. I love you, kiddo, but I hate you too. I am out of here. I will text you later.
Hannah disappears from the screen
Maki: That was hard to hear so I may need a few moments to digest it. Just remember this is the last intense piece. Next on our journey we will see the rebirth and it will be a far different experience I promise you.
She blows a kiss to the camera and shuts it off
Maki: Han, you should have been here for the last part I recorded. I want you to know.
Hannah: Do you think I could listen to the story of your rape?
Maki: I guess not. Well you will be coming into this one now so it is important to hear your views.
Hannah nods as Melissa puffs away on her vape, thinking about how stupid she had been.
Maki: So that last part was extremely emotional to say and for you dear watchers it was probably even harder to hear and see my reaction to it. There is one more intense part to get through and then you will see my rebirth. So please do not feel bad or pity for me. Sometimes you need to go through extraordinary hardships to become who you are today. Think of the seven year old child who has been hit by a bus or a new-born with leukemia fighting for life. They deserve your concern. Not me. I am simply telling you my story.
Hannah: Well you have depressed the fuck out of everyone now.
Maki: I am a phoenix rising from the ashes. Anyway, so the rapes went on and on, along with the beatings. Feeling dehumanized was now a way of life for me but I still had to keep up appearances. I was wrestling but within myself, you know? I lost matches I shouldn’t and The Makihouse Kick wasn’t as sharp as it used to be. I still won more than I lost. Brett knew something was up but didn’t pry. So we kept rolling on, living hand to mouth but the more punishment I took the less merchandise I sold so we were dirt poor. I emailed my parents and Han from time to time.
Hannah: You hardly said anything and when I wrote back to ask to hang out I wouldn’t get a reply for weeks and then it would be, “I can’t sorry love. Wrestling and travelling. Next time, eh?” I am a freakin’ model I can fly to wherever you are.
Maki: I was not me. I keep telling you that. So we will get to the fallout of what happened to end this ridiculous relationship. I am not making light of it. Hell, I went through it. I just want to erase that whole time from my life and part of it is talking about it like this. My therapist said it will be cathartic.
So we went to a restaurant because he wanted to, while I was running into debt keeping us afloat. We had our food, I remember this clearly, I just had a tofu salad and he had ribs or something. All night this waiter was flirting with me. Tommy was furious and was blaming me. So I figured he would wait til we get home and the same cycle would repeat.
Hannah rolls her eyes and then becomes impassive again
Maki: So he told me harshly to wait where I am, he would get the car. So I am all dolled up in my little black dress. A beautiful Latino woman was waiting for a cab. She started to talk to me. It was nice to talk to a girl you know? I am faithful when I am in a relationship so I would never have gone with the waiter or this woman but we were just shooting the breeze. Her cab came, she grabbed my hand, kissed me on the cheek and whispered, “I saw you with that guy. You can do so much better. You’re stunning! If that thing hurts you again, and we both know he hits you, this is my brother’s card” Then she was off.
Hannah: Should have taken her advice.
Maki: Probs. I quickly looked at the card and threw it away. I was scared that he may find it if I kept it. I was waiting for a few minutes but it seemed like ages. The squealing tyres told the story that he was going to attack me tonight but I was safe as he never wanted it to be publicly known as around Boston at least, I was known.
Hannah: Still are. They even call me Melissa’s sister when I am there, asking for your autograph.
Maki: Happened when I was there with Quinn too but think she got more requests!
Hannah: I am not going to talk about that one again.
Maki: Anyway, So he jumped out of the car, punched me so hard in the face with such sudden ferocity I was shocked. He slammed me over the hood of my car and tried to rape me again. This time in public. He lifted my dress up but I started to fight back, witnesses said I had eyes as black as the night. We fought and somehow he had a knife at my throat, and started to rape me again but apparently he looked shocked. Something in my demeanor had changed. It didn’t stop him but he held the knife closer, I heard footsteps and shouts from nearby but it was like I was drowning under water and you can hear just snippets but what I could hear was…
“Drop the knife on the ground and back away from the lady. We will shoot if you do not comply by the count of three”
COPS! I was elated but something happened within me, I heard myself say, “I am free” but it wasn’t my voice. and didn't come from me. So now, Han, doesn’t believe this part but I swear I got it from witnesses and the police corroborated it.
Hannah: Yeah Yeah The Demoness saved you. Blah blah blah. You’re nuts just admit it. Anyone went through that would be.
This time it was Melissa who rolled her eyes.
Maki: So this is how I was told it went down and as per the police report. He wouldn’t drop the knife and was still technically raping me. They had got to a count of two. There was a wail like a banshee scream coming from me. I grabbed the knife from his hands and stabbed it through his right eye. As he fell to the ground clutching at the blood coming from his eye, I was clawing him all over and slamming fist after fist into him. The police raced over and pulled me off. Officer Christensen said my eyes were black, my skin was pale and I looked like a ghost. The scumbag was taken to hospital. He lived and I testified in court against him. He is in prison now. I wasn’t charged as it was classed as self- defence which was backed by my two heroes. Daniela went back into the abyss just as quickly as she had freed herself.
Hannah: This was when you reached out to us and told us the story. Which, as you know I am still furious with you for blocking us out but its what comes next that hurts me more than anything else you did.
Maki: Hmmm yeah. I felt free. Of course I was emotionally scarred and haven’t dated or had sex with a man since. I may do again in the future. You cannot predict what will happen.
Hannah: Let’s fast forward this okay?
Maki: Fine. So things improved, my career was also improving steadily. I had decided my best course of action was to be with friends and family. Yes, I had had a couple of one night stands with women but it felt good to be wanted again without the emotional baggage I was carrying. Things went downhill fast one night. I was in a bar with Hannah. We were drinking and a couple of blokes were chatting us up, feeding us drinks, giving us their lines. I was apprehensive as I could feel Daniela stirring and since that night she only stirs when she senses issues about to arise.
Hannah: I am used to guys hitting on me and usually Mel would be too. This time something felt off but I was getting drunk and he was a handsome fella so I was getting swept away.
Maki: He touched my hand. I freaked out. I slapped him hard in the face and ran out of the bar. I kept on running and running. Somehow I made it home. I just sat there thinking if this was my life moving forward. Do I want to carry on? That bastard had ruined me. I was in floods of tears. Was it worth it? I was dying slowly inside and there was no escape from it. The only escape was…death!
Hannah: Fuck you. I cannot sit here and lis…
Hannah burst into tears and ran off camera
Maki: it is a horrible thing for her and I do hope she comes back as we have not broached this and her feelings on it. So I wanted to end the internal suffering I felt. Even with Han I was different. My life had spiralled out of control and the only way to control it was to end it. Daniela came up and I felt my thighs tingle, and in my own blood on my thighs were the words, “Please Don’t Die”
I did not adhere to her wishes. I ran a bath. I presumed Hannah thought it was me being weird again and was dancing with that bloke and the last thing she would remember was being happy that night. I texted Brett. Spoke to my mum and dad and they didn’t know anything was wrong. I couldn’t hurt them and tell them what I was about to do. I emailed off to my federation bosses that I would not be going back.
We can hear whimpers from afar. Hannah crying in the background but Maki is stoic girl.
Maki: I lay in the bath and held a knife in my hand. I was not going to do it with a razor. I am a unique and bat shit crazy lady and I am going to go out as one. Finally I would find peace. I cut my left wrist and then somehow managed to cut my right one. The pain was intolerable but I sunk into the water, and let the pain wash over me, I found myself in a meditative state. I wondered if I would meet Buddha or would I have vanished from the earth almost as quickly as I had entered it into earth and mud or would they burn my short existence away from the earth like a true Viking.
At the time those thoughts kept me happy as I drifted into unconsciousness. In the far reaches of the world I was leaving behind I heard a noise. I started to slump into the water and was wondering if that slight noise preceded the white glow that everyone says they felt.
Hannah walked back in and shut the camera off. We slowly come to life again, Melissa with her head in her hands and Hannah looking pissed off.
Hannah: Enough talking now. My damn turn. So that noise you heard Mel, as you well know now, was me smashing your door in. What you failed to mention was that Mum and Dad KNEW there was something wrong. You believed they didn’t but they did. Do you believe for one second I would just let you run out on your own? I am your fucking sister! I got there and as I raced from room to room I couldn’t find you. All the lights were off so it was a task. I found you in the bath, pulled you out and wrapped towels over your wrists. It was ME who called the paramedics, It was me you would have left behind. This is why I am a bitch to you. Never once did you want to confide in me, never did you tell me you wanted to kill yourself. Everyone forgave you for it but I can’t. Imagine finding me in a bath full of bloody water, slipping away from this world, on my own and you came and found me. How would you feel?
Maki: I’m sorry, Han.
Hannah: Doesn’t make it right. I cannot forgive you for it but I have been given more time now with you for which I am eternally thankful. I am so happy you are back doing what you love, being happy, the old Melissa is here now and we all love it and you so much but you tried to leave me and I had to save you and see you like that so I am sorry but the apology will not work on me. I have said my piece. I love you, kiddo, but I hate you too. I am out of here. I will text you later.
Hannah disappears from the screen
Maki: That was hard to hear so I may need a few moments to digest it. Just remember this is the last intense piece. Next on our journey we will see the rebirth and it will be a far different experience I promise you.
She blows a kiss to the camera and shuts it off
