Post by Deleted on May 24, 2020 3:05:41 GMT -8
We open back to the couch of Melissa Aki and her sister Hannah. Both have cups in their hands. Hannah is drinking herbal tea and sits right back with her back straight, her feet in fluffy pink slippers. Melissa is back looking a bit somber, sipping at her coffee and then Vaping.]
Maki: Okay so now we commence the hard parts of this. I have been told this is cathartic but it doesn’t help when your bitch sister mocks everything you do or say. Don’t give me that eye roll, Han. So I think we finished with us arguing. So before that, I spoke about the control issue. Tommy was controlling me, getting mad if I went out with the girls, he had made sure to break up my relationship with my family. He knew that I was a free spirit so tried to tame me, he was scared that being Bi-sexual EVERYONE was after me. Totally not true.
[She sips her coffee and puffs away as Hannah rolls her eyes]
Maki: So the first time it happened. The domestic abuse. I had come home late from a show. You know you wrestle, then shower and change. I won, of course. So at the airport the flight was delayed. He had a gig somewhere in Southey so didn’t follow me to the show.
So I was sitting there chilling and talking to Brett whilst we were downing shots at the bar. My phone now is going ape shit. 113 WhatsApp messages, 46 text messages, 232 voicemails. I forgot to let him know the flight was delayed. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach with worry. He is going to freak out isn’t he? He has gone crazy on my phone and I couldn’t bear it anymore. I wanted to tell Brett about it but I just smiled and joked with him instead. Keeping a mask in public is what I do.
Hannah: The fucking phone? That was your clue he was mental! Fuck sake, Mel.
Hannah shakes her head slowly as Melissa shuts her eyes and steadies herself, thinking, you weren’t there okay?
Maki: So I was worried about the reaction and being me I didn’t respond to anything and shut down my phone. It was a huge mistake. I should have answered and explained but he was possessive and would have screamed at me. The funny thing is that I knew I had never been in love with him so why was I staying with someone like him?
Hannah: Why indeed!
Maki: So I get in like at three in the a.m. I slowly open the door, with my huge bag on my shoulder as well as my little suitcase and it must have been seconds as I opened the door that I was having my head slammed backwards against it and not in a rough sex way. I felt a trickle of blood come from my nose and at this point I didn’t realise he had already punched me on my nose. My head was hurting, I could barely see as my glasses were gone and my vision was even worse. I remember thinking, am I dreaming this as he kept slamming my head against the door. Had I deserved this?
Hannah gets up and walks out of shot, upset at what she is hearing.
Maki: I am a professional fighter and I wasn’t fighting back. I was taken aback by the sudden ferocity of the attack. No questions. No raised temper as he disagree with me. He just went full bore insane. He pulled me by my hair which was coming out of its pony tail, and threw me into the kitchen, my whole body jarred as I hit the oven hard. He grabbed a kettle, he obviously had boiled earlier, or kept boiling til I got home. He poured it over me but the shock of the heat was enough to bring me back to life. I started clawing at him, trying to get an advantage. Being British we love a good headbutt so that is what I did and it connected on his cheekbone and made him stumble back. I tried to get out of the apartment but he leaped on me. In one fluid motion he had put me through the coffee table. I felt the sharp pain of glass inside me. It hurt like hell. He had pulled my skirt up and ripped my knickers off but as I struggled he looked at me and suddenly stopped.
I pulled the glass out of me and hobbled to the medicine cabinet in the bathroom to address my wounds before I left for good. He came in, and touched my shoulder. I flinched and punched him in the head again. He reeled but then he looked down to the ground. He looked like a little lost boy.
He said, “I don’t know what came over me. I really don’t. I am sorry. I will never do that again. It’s just I was so worried about you, flying and then you didn’t respond for hours and I was so upset. Please don’t ever do that again.”
Maki: I was so furious. He has blamed me for this attack. I screamed this at him and pushed past him. I told him to leave as it is my place and not his. He started pleading again that it was my fault. He wouldn’t leave so I decided to leave. But then out of nowhere I woke up naked with my wrists bound. He slammed his fist in my face and threatened me with rape. He didn’t seem at that time like he wanted to.
He said, “Look. I do not want to hurt you, Melissa. You brought this on yourself. Why can’t you just be a good girl? Just follow the rules and this does not have to happen. I love you too much. “
I was so mad but at some point through the night he made me believe it WAS my fault. He wore me down with his brainwashing, so I ended up staying with him.
She looks away, as Hannah comes back with Mr Buttersworth. Maki’s teddy bear that she goes everywhere with
Hannah: Mr Buttersworth wants to cheer you up.
Maki: Thanks.
She snatches the teddy and holds him close to her chest as she swallows down the pain.
Hannah: I could point out the various mistakes you made here on this first night but it wasn’t your fault. Staying for eight months or whatever, not telling your family about it. That was worse.
Maki: I know but somehow I believed him and didn’t know why I did. So as we go on a lot of these incidents occur but at the same time something odd happened to me. When the beatings started happening more regularly it was like I blacked out. I would re-emerge and we would both have cuts, blood pouring from our heads but like I didn’t remember doing anything to him except apologise for hurting him. I know, I know.
Hannah: You’re going to mention her aren’t you?
Maki: Yes! So these blackouts happened more and more often in those first few months of his abuse. I He threw me against the bathroom mirror and it spider webbed. I had not given him the fork he wanted with his dinner. I held the taps or faucets for you Americans and looked up as he was raining down fists to the back of my head. There was a flicker, my eyes went dark, my skin went grey and then back to normal. I am Asian, It is very hard for my skin to go grey. Another time he almost put my head through the TV but man it hurt and I looked up and there in her white faced glory was the demoness and she whispered, “Let me out.” But I didn’t. I couldn’t. I am still ashamed now that it took this, it took Daniela to free me from this man. The beatings hurt, Daniela was coming close to taking over my body, she wanted to hurt him but I couldn’t do that. This guy loved me and it was my fault. I drove him to punish me. Yet, no one in the world knew what I was going through and my career was in a downward spiral. I wish I had told you Brett. I really do.
She turns the camera off as we see Hannah once again hugging her
Maki: Okay so now we commence the hard parts of this. I have been told this is cathartic but it doesn’t help when your bitch sister mocks everything you do or say. Don’t give me that eye roll, Han. So I think we finished with us arguing. So before that, I spoke about the control issue. Tommy was controlling me, getting mad if I went out with the girls, he had made sure to break up my relationship with my family. He knew that I was a free spirit so tried to tame me, he was scared that being Bi-sexual EVERYONE was after me. Totally not true.
[She sips her coffee and puffs away as Hannah rolls her eyes]
Maki: So the first time it happened. The domestic abuse. I had come home late from a show. You know you wrestle, then shower and change. I won, of course. So at the airport the flight was delayed. He had a gig somewhere in Southey so didn’t follow me to the show.
So I was sitting there chilling and talking to Brett whilst we were downing shots at the bar. My phone now is going ape shit. 113 WhatsApp messages, 46 text messages, 232 voicemails. I forgot to let him know the flight was delayed. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach with worry. He is going to freak out isn’t he? He has gone crazy on my phone and I couldn’t bear it anymore. I wanted to tell Brett about it but I just smiled and joked with him instead. Keeping a mask in public is what I do.
Hannah: The fucking phone? That was your clue he was mental! Fuck sake, Mel.
Hannah shakes her head slowly as Melissa shuts her eyes and steadies herself, thinking, you weren’t there okay?
Maki: So I was worried about the reaction and being me I didn’t respond to anything and shut down my phone. It was a huge mistake. I should have answered and explained but he was possessive and would have screamed at me. The funny thing is that I knew I had never been in love with him so why was I staying with someone like him?
Hannah: Why indeed!
Maki: So I get in like at three in the a.m. I slowly open the door, with my huge bag on my shoulder as well as my little suitcase and it must have been seconds as I opened the door that I was having my head slammed backwards against it and not in a rough sex way. I felt a trickle of blood come from my nose and at this point I didn’t realise he had already punched me on my nose. My head was hurting, I could barely see as my glasses were gone and my vision was even worse. I remember thinking, am I dreaming this as he kept slamming my head against the door. Had I deserved this?
Hannah gets up and walks out of shot, upset at what she is hearing.
Maki: I am a professional fighter and I wasn’t fighting back. I was taken aback by the sudden ferocity of the attack. No questions. No raised temper as he disagree with me. He just went full bore insane. He pulled me by my hair which was coming out of its pony tail, and threw me into the kitchen, my whole body jarred as I hit the oven hard. He grabbed a kettle, he obviously had boiled earlier, or kept boiling til I got home. He poured it over me but the shock of the heat was enough to bring me back to life. I started clawing at him, trying to get an advantage. Being British we love a good headbutt so that is what I did and it connected on his cheekbone and made him stumble back. I tried to get out of the apartment but he leaped on me. In one fluid motion he had put me through the coffee table. I felt the sharp pain of glass inside me. It hurt like hell. He had pulled my skirt up and ripped my knickers off but as I struggled he looked at me and suddenly stopped.
I pulled the glass out of me and hobbled to the medicine cabinet in the bathroom to address my wounds before I left for good. He came in, and touched my shoulder. I flinched and punched him in the head again. He reeled but then he looked down to the ground. He looked like a little lost boy.
He said, “I don’t know what came over me. I really don’t. I am sorry. I will never do that again. It’s just I was so worried about you, flying and then you didn’t respond for hours and I was so upset. Please don’t ever do that again.”
Maki: I was so furious. He has blamed me for this attack. I screamed this at him and pushed past him. I told him to leave as it is my place and not his. He started pleading again that it was my fault. He wouldn’t leave so I decided to leave. But then out of nowhere I woke up naked with my wrists bound. He slammed his fist in my face and threatened me with rape. He didn’t seem at that time like he wanted to.
He said, “Look. I do not want to hurt you, Melissa. You brought this on yourself. Why can’t you just be a good girl? Just follow the rules and this does not have to happen. I love you too much. “
I was so mad but at some point through the night he made me believe it WAS my fault. He wore me down with his brainwashing, so I ended up staying with him.
She looks away, as Hannah comes back with Mr Buttersworth. Maki’s teddy bear that she goes everywhere with
Hannah: Mr Buttersworth wants to cheer you up.
Maki: Thanks.
She snatches the teddy and holds him close to her chest as she swallows down the pain.
Hannah: I could point out the various mistakes you made here on this first night but it wasn’t your fault. Staying for eight months or whatever, not telling your family about it. That was worse.
Maki: I know but somehow I believed him and didn’t know why I did. So as we go on a lot of these incidents occur but at the same time something odd happened to me. When the beatings started happening more regularly it was like I blacked out. I would re-emerge and we would both have cuts, blood pouring from our heads but like I didn’t remember doing anything to him except apologise for hurting him. I know, I know.
Hannah: You’re going to mention her aren’t you?
Maki: Yes! So these blackouts happened more and more often in those first few months of his abuse. I He threw me against the bathroom mirror and it spider webbed. I had not given him the fork he wanted with his dinner. I held the taps or faucets for you Americans and looked up as he was raining down fists to the back of my head. There was a flicker, my eyes went dark, my skin went grey and then back to normal. I am Asian, It is very hard for my skin to go grey. Another time he almost put my head through the TV but man it hurt and I looked up and there in her white faced glory was the demoness and she whispered, “Let me out.” But I didn’t. I couldn’t. I am still ashamed now that it took this, it took Daniela to free me from this man. The beatings hurt, Daniela was coming close to taking over my body, she wanted to hurt him but I couldn’t do that. This guy loved me and it was my fault. I drove him to punish me. Yet, no one in the world knew what I was going through and my career was in a downward spiral. I wish I had told you Brett. I really do.
She turns the camera off as we see Hannah once again hugging her
